Of active participation and the inevitable

There àre aspects of life suffered alone, some of which are subtle and some loud. The subtle ones are more powerful for an introverted mind like mine. I will not be with someone for money who maltreats me. I may be homeless because of it. I will not consent to rape. I may be persecuted and homeless for it. I have followed my mind to two degrees(I choose well for me in the coming age of AI)and the sciences I am more than capable of doing on my own as only I can for me(I can’t be smart without being not-me, not being this differentiating x black woman. So I choose to be myself). This I do and continue to do for my freedom to voice my thoughts and write. It means the world to me. I must confess, it was the most unexpected, the minor in psychology that saved me. I work mainly with thoughts and words. If anyone could save me from the evil and harm I experienced, only I could. Absolutely, only I could. One of the worst experiences with PayPal was not merely that my account was being subjected to what seemed criminal activity, but that extreme sickening feeling that something way worse was trying to destroy my life. I was told everything was fine and I had to upload an ID and every time I uploaded an ID, I changed my password. And every time I tried to login, my password was changed, codes disappearing and ID deleted. I went to the FBI. And I am yet to get a forensic audit for all my PayPal accounts. I don’t write more because I am not selling my books. I need the audit to be done. I need justice. And I must tell you to give your support now so you can get books I will not make available online in person in any future concerts, as jazz is not the only music category for ril. If things go other than it should, it’s because I need justice. To support justice for me, please support the free books for life cause and music by ril. Active participation matters. Your receipts mean freedom and justice for me.