On trauma and the psychoactive reality

I heard one of Epstein’s victims committed suicide sometime in April this year. And I thought about how I survived the worst days of my rapist-law. enforcement persecution over rapist’s accusation of threat of violence with no evidence of such because “crazy”(why someone like me will rather die than call them for the help they can never deliver)trauma psychoactively. I survived. I am still surviving. It is alarming anyone can steal my life, labor and liberty after what I experienced. Whoever does deserves to be shot dead in broad daylight. I will write this in the present tense in some sort of creative nonfiction in the future. I feel it would be some sort of release for me. Trauma never leaves, its self-devaluing effects are mainly rendered worthless by self-evaluating means. This will certainly be provided in print and you can have it free with your PayPal and music by ril receipt someday. Those receipts mean freedom and justice for me. It is a testament of all that is brave, true, dignified and worthy of justice I am looking forward to detailing the final days I survived with rigorous self psychotherapy, optimizable resolve and optimism. The repercussions of these horrible actions are devastating for the victim. For every step evil uses to plague and demean me, I have sought to do greater things–hard knock in this situation, but believe me unreservedly when I say justice means the world to me in this case. There is hardly anything I won’t do to achieve it. To support my work and my quest for justice please support the free books for life cause or music by ril and keep your printable digital receipts as testament.

The disturbed

People who claim they can read minds are the most disturbed. They’ll never know peace, inner or outer.

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On justice and indignity

With Ghislaine Maxwell transferred to the YMCA PARTY CLUB of prisons where Elizabeth Holmes is, I’m wondering what the state of justice is in this country. Justice, or a reasonable sense of it, is the single most important aspect of human, political and socioeconomically relations. Clearly, I have pending status with justice which matters to who gets my support for any reason. Justice matters to me and everything I do. I don’t know how far I will go to get it, but I’ll never stop. Justice is all the dignity a body politic can own. On this fight my readers, remember printout of your digital tickets in support ofy works is a testament to divinity and justice. Indignity is just and you refuse to do. It defines you.

Degenerate and malignant ganglike stalkers

Parasitic malignant tumors, coming for the blue and black they ain’t got. None spatial entities imaginable imagining realistic space. Must be political cancer? Or is it scientific cancer? There is a reason they treat cancer with radiation and chemotherapy. You can’t treat malignant with malignancy. Stupid people don’t know this, they just keep eating away at someone else’s life. And genetic degenerate scientists say they know but clearly lack insight. Tell me cancer is not parasitic and the sandy red Hispanic stalker doesn’t have it. What ills science is, what ills degenerate science prescribes? How does one degenerate gang continously choose to stalk an innocent person and not be cancerous? Malignant are clearly degenerate and ganglike. They are ganglike and evil because of the power investigated in the by degenerate racist male gnant science. If it’s happening to me, I’m talking about it. No doubt. My readers, help make America safe again. Clearly with parallel parasitic ganglike malignant tumors running about terrorizing innocent healthy cells, it’s not safe. Help achieve justice. And please support the free books for life cause and music by ril. Nothing is ever done so truly with great and unconquerable strength and determination I must write in a book. Thank you.

The need for justice

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When

When you become crazy because of a rapist and persecuted for that event, that event is unforgetable in your lifetime. It is also unforgivable. Why would I let a rapist close to me?

Of bank heists and stupid justifications

My readers, maybe this makes rational sense to you if you’re smart:

If someone red who called you red indian turns around to tell you you’re blue, you are the crime. Much the same way law enforcement, FBI, CIA, DOJ committing bank heist are the crime. Reminds me of the three Ranger military personnel who committed a bank heist but forgot to remove the front license plate of the get away car. I bet if those license plates couldn’t be read, they could have gotten away with the bank heist. Unintelligent thieves!

Of thieves, gangs and communism

Tell me what country is great which doesn’t respecy individuality and what belongs in natural and optimizable reality. Too many dunces around here wake up and can’t recognize themselves in the lives and mirrors they stole. They complain of gangs but don’t know the communist degeneration that got them there. They’re are turning into Gotham city where thieves are the most entitled criminals. I can’t pity them my readers. What I truly need is justice so I can be liberated from their unintelligent forced relativity.

Of truth and nature

Some smart people are catching up to the Democrat pretending that they are not Nazis. You know what they say my readers, science is a very brutal subject that can sometimes beat its subject to a pulp before settinv it on fire for it burns down to ashes truth must foretell than predicate. If you don’t want to see the brutality of truth in science, you better get your knees and pray to nature no one smart has the ability to expose it. Especially if life, labor and liberty is not on the line.

Lifeless versus faceless people

Lifeless people, corpses, have more dignity than faceless people, genetic degenerate lowlife existential thieves.

The audacity of theft and other crimes

My readers, we were asking what Peter Thiel got for his support for Trump before we were rudely interrupted by the ISREAL-US-IRAN war. Back to it, got an email from thieves yesterday. And I thought who do these thieves think will cover up their thefts? Is it those who should uphold the law and protect the innocent? Is it Kash Patel? Is it Pam Bondi? Who is going to support crimes. Ending this evil is what I supported Trump for. Not an unprovoked war that may kill veterans for what was never done for them. Nobody can let go of harm done to them for no evil done. No doubt. Meanwhile my readers, Bullet Lane 7 must be written soon. I will talk about any of my works in scheduled intellectual gatherings I know you will soon get to love. Your printed out digital support tickets gets you there. Thank you for being here.

Much worse than theft

I think someone just gave me what college has to be sued for much worse than theft. I will love to. Who knows who else is in on this shit. Envy, what a horrible degeneracy. Damn, the fun may have just started. My readers, we can discuss any essay or article posted online in our sessions. Anything at all. But please, please, please, I need the printouts of your digital receipts. Please, for the sake of justice.

Of unnatural indignity, science, sexual degeneration and beastiality

I hear lions have sex with one another, their red eyes gleaming under the sun, going whichever way in third phase I don’t know. Which sort of sex I don’t know either, except when in parallel alignment with the differentiating x path. That which happens outside me and in parallel must be homosexual. Or nature cannot be as it is. Otherwise, to each accordingly. Intelligence is beckoning for the heterosexual to find out how nature works for brained humans. Beastiality is a regressive degenerate intercourse. Science, a dignified two legged brained human being must do it. Dignity, what an amazing thing to own.

of life, labor and the extraordinary

On the subject of labor theft, I hear the statute of limitation can be waved for crimes based on “extraordinary circumstances”. And the civil liabilities has no such thing as limitations.

This great anomaly

My readers, this must be one of the reasons Harvard is being plagued. You cannot put white on top of black and green. You can only put it against those. Those who are the smartest among us my readers! These lies you tell, these incoherent inhuman lies you tell. Does it mean you’re smarter than me? Goodness My readers, I’m perpetually a student. I love freedom. It’s one of the reasons I support Harvard’s freedom in their predicament. I will never tell you what to believe, and while I am still simplifying things in my work, so the stupidest of the coming AIGeneration can understand if she chooses, especially if she looks like me. The present course of action in physics portends that the skies you see above you, the signature of a natural earth, is inside the ground (clearly somebody smart has work to do). And here you must know that you heard this here first and the best of those who have invested their lives in xy coordination must now understand something is very wrong. And then wait for me to explain it all because they don’t know zero ordinate or the differential x coordination is coming from or going How did I know? Through something I clearly don’t know called Calculus. Yet, I’m still a student. Crazy. But I must prove these things regardless of my lack of knowledge. Wherever you are in the world, you don’t wanna miss a thing my readers. I will explain it all in coming alw chapters. So ask me, ask me, ask me:

What do you mean
ask me, ask me, ask me
What do you mean?

uhuhuhuhihuhuh
Who no one cares about is me yeah
Who no one cares about is me
Wouldn’t have it no other way
Never gonna be somebody yeah
Yeah yeah it’s me yeah, it’s me yeah, it’s me yeah, it’s me yeah

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Let me give you an idea for this great anomaly:

Of self and theft

It’s a pity, that the privileged seek to steal. It’s never the same, you see my readers. In the world of the Caucasian lighter is better. We are also not the same spiritually are we now? So when I say stay away from what’s mine do you can know yourself, the Caucasian female comes stalking me yesterday and today. Maybe if I am dissected, they can peel my skin and become me while they have theirs. But why? Isn’t lighter better? I hate theft because it has been evil’s weapon of choice to terrorize me so I don’t succeed. Stealing from someone else’s sitting position is shamegul. So I say to you, this inadequacy will be yours. I don’t steal from you even when you abuse, harm and terrorize me. I know what I know that you don’t. I know what I am capable of knowing from what I know and you don’t.So you don’t know. Imagine the irony. This jobless loser is being stalked by important people. If we go by common sense alone, the loss is already there. Can’t say stop cos no one ever listens. Despite my vulnerabilities I still persist. There is no evil in a scientific world that can’t be found out eventually. It It is the utmost dignity any self-respecting human can have. I am going to again recommend psychotherapy because narcissm, greed and crimes are dangerous to self and others. In the end truth speaks for itself. May we all get what we deserve in the end. Amen.

False narratives in world views and other science horrors

Uhn, stupid people talk a lot of yap shit all the time especially when they call themselves the media, I pray no one remembers them for good in good time. Meanwhile my readers, the dark black male has his back to me existentially. He must. My back is red and black. The dark black female is in orthogonal fashion an extended x also with her back to me relatively. Thus I have both the horizontal and vertical differentials. Science, someone smart must do it. This is my genepool. I am in the primary pool. Any relative extension is secondary. The dark black female and male are in the secondary relative to me. I am sitting where they are. I own my light, They can come around and embrace me if they want. Nature does not kill its own. If it did, nobody will exist.YOU LIE. And far from it, I am not one of those stupid women who don’t know who they are and where they are. I suggest you get out of my primary genepool and negative space. Can’t force you but i must warn you catastrophe is coming. And it has nothing to do with the Native American or other people of color. Anyone can live their lie. I chose smart and provable scientific truth. I don’t play.

How stupid can you be? Earth is not stagnant, it is rotating in localized and universal modes in seasonal time. The top of the world is the top of the world wherever you are especially if as the differentiating x you have the ability to migrate points. Africa is the top of the world, so is iceland and vice versa. Science is knowing how everything relates. Am i a rocket scientist already Or you’re just stupid. I Love natural science physics and math. Not interested in the inverted nonhuman nonentity penis rocket thingy. So let me know.You dont know me yet as i am stil testing my own capability. But how stupid can you be? I will build a realistic natural world scientifically and openly. Build your fake world however, wherever you may. Just stop being degenerate thieves. For the sake of truth and dignity in science, that false Native American attachment needs to end. I am not in the fake brave new artificial science fiction world you built. Am out, you can keep it.

So you don’t know the truth yet. Not even after this fact—I own all the darklies strictly because of the proximal and opposing relativity. Women who are not me in my individual personhood can never speak for me. I will not speak for them however their evil and envy stalks me. I am my own test subject, If i wasn’t, i cannot speak at all. By darklies, i mean dark-blue, dark-green, and anything you can hyphenate after the dark. I dont have the light hyphenations. They are orthogonal. I don’t have that job, don’t want it. I am not a person of color. I am not Caucasian. That said, the blue in negative space cannot be had because it is a death-0-space for non-proximal differentials. Through the darkness, in space is water vapor. Nobody except the mentally retarded and clinically insane animals will think they can build a house with water vapor. I see water vapor. You cannot build a house with it. I don’t want to know how anyone builds houses with ice. There is warmth here, Humanity, at least mine, needs warmth.

That said, you can build the world as degenerative-ly as you may. The white house you worship is in reflection space and not in my earthian planar pathway. I suggest you build accordingly. Who has the consciousness to tell an outsider to get out matters by the space naturally occupied. I cannot be a paranoid schizophrenic who builds a reflection white on natural green or cannot be capable of natural intelligence and intuition or conceive of scientific application to natural lie. No doubt I have the right to build my private home in the natural open, naturally and share my private intellectual labor as I choose so everyone can have access and I can be communal in my way (so my intellect is not restrained and demeaned by racist and evil institutions). I intend to do this till the day I die.You can do whatever you want. You just can no longer hide falsehood with excuses of access, privilege, status or education. I am glad for the modern world of AI which I will be learning on my own terms. My readers, I have no privilege to help me and unlike some privileged people, I have never asked the government for money. Their help is attached to the trauma that almost killed me. If you want to support this poor differentiating x jobless woman plagued by evil, harm, abuse and terrorism, please support the free books for life cause.And if you wanna help with the phobia, say hi and be a friend. May a capable person do.Thank you.

Black men and self-harm

Black men beating down black men is like a good for nohing event done in no time for nothig good. Its like Musk getting into the hands of viral hate as viral company, viral pride and such while becoming increasingly unsalvageable since—like a cult, which holds no room for rationality or worthwhile reasoning. Unlike the natural differentiating x, all men are this way— unmoving except with colorful waves. Thus men relatively are like these woeful women who stalk andenace me for their lack of intelligence. Ladies, beautiful ladies, may we all get what we deserve in the end. Amen. I Know what I want is very different from what most of you want. I am the most non-materialistic woman I know. I have paid my price, will keep paying it. Meanwhile, back to the analogy on Musk, at some point you may care because you like to see others succeed but then you stop caring much because its increasing self harm. People like me on the other hand, suffer terroristic harmful plights while opposing unnatural, terroristic and unscientific self-harm.

The newly DEI racist world

You know the world is filled with entitled unintelligent immortal DEI candidates when a woman profits on GODFUNDME for calling a black child “Nigger”. Stupid fool called the Wrong person a nigger. What do you mean what unthinking evil I dream of being a nigger for the good stuff red assed wiman? This one:

The Injustice against Patel and other horrors of society

He’s been in jail for 43 days, accused of trying to abduct a kid at Walmart. His lawyer argues video shows he’s innocent

https://www.cnn.com/2025/05/04/us/mahendra-patel-georgia-walmart-kidnapping

My darling readers, I am glad about a few things in this case. The detailed CNN report, the name Patel, the fact that the evil woman who felt entitled in this case is Caucasian and the place it happened in. Now, clearly, because no one knows me, I have no fame or followers except those few whi will be ticketed as long as they have their tickets from Bandcamp, into the Bluesie jazz fest, I cannot be the cause for Kash patelss newly found fame upon fame. So much so, someone dug this case up. We must find justice in this case.

Facts. Purple is red. Purple has always been red because to get a purple leaf, the leaf must be deoxygenated. So Patel, I suggest you turn your back completely on the blue black mountain behind you. .The only one that can remotely be in the space is blue eyed, a HE, and he must completely turn his back to it as well, so you can see his eyes alongside his red ASSED self. Science, somebody smart and dignified must do it. . Again, the American Indian, the Hispanic, the Asian, people of color are red. Clearly those who did this horrible science that mde this red e, evil, racist woman say those horrible things are genetic degenerate evil scientists. Alabama State can never solve this importnant problems. Harvard can, expecially with the pen help from someone like me. This is the future I want to live in.

So Patel, i suggest everybody involved in the horrible things they say FBI helped them achieve relative to me be subpoenad and/or arrested. That forensic audit must be done for about ten years. And that school loan they cant find must be found. Kash Patel, Pam Bondi, Garland and Wray are now done and worthless, the fame map is on you, I don’t know how cos I ain’t got no fans. But it is. You don’t wanna end u like these two and the democrats. You want to take decisive dignifiable actions now. My readers, to help with justice here, wherever you are in the world, the remixes are here this Friday, purchase, hold the tickets, paste it online if you want, a stamp you are part of justice, decency and dignity, truly make America great again. Participate this Friday, so Patel can have an open voice where otherwise he wouldn’t. Please participate this Friday.