The larger estate of existence : the human experience

https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2023/dec/11/united-states-suicide-rates-mental-health-crisis-causes

We need to talk about the United States’ mental health crisis – and its larger causes | Robert Reich | The Guardian

The list could be much longer, but you get the point. The anxiety disorders suffered by Americans are real, and they apparently are growing. But instead of regarding them solely as personal disorders, maybe we need to understand them at least partly as social disorders – and get to work remedying them as a society.

My readers, if it’s human and I know about it or have experienced it, I’m going to talk about it. Let’s start with this. While the system is sick because it discriminates with respect to money, doctors are sick because they make judgment based on biases and prejudices. Vlearly they need consistent psychotherapeutic sessions.

I say of this empathic social experiment: let those who feel no anxiety at all regarding the state of things, be psychopathic and sociopathic in tendencies. Then there is a large population of those living among us we are yet to uncover.

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The Derivable Schrodinger’s Triangle

The chatbot optimisation game: can we trust AI web searches? https://www.theguardian.com/technology/2024/nov/03/the-chatbot-optimisation-game-can-we-trust-ai-web-searches?CMP=share_btn_url

“It’s a cat and mouse game,” says Ameet Deshpande, a doctoral student at Princeton University, New Jersey, and co-author of the paper. “Because these generative engines are not static, and they’re also black boxes, we don’t have any sense of what they’re using [to select information] behind closed doors. It could range from complicated algorithms to potential human supervision.”

I don’t think generative engines like SEO’s are black boxes. I think they’re like Schrodinger’s cat as in they exist and don’t exist. But the mouse part can only follow the existing clause. They’re like open ended triangles, a pyramid scheme oof such for best possibile outputs. The human supervision will eventually be turned into flashes of ads we may not know we’re getting by the likes of Google. Yes, my readers, AI will be a tool for hypnosis. You are warned. That and such. 1984, here we come. 2939 is scheduled for next year. Please support this worthwhile project by supporting the free books for life cause. So worth it. Let’s do this so we can do more like it.

That scenario

That scenario when you hope these fake polls will not lead to something worse than Jan 6 being thoroughly excusable. Because Trump won’t be dictating it.

On the evil of kinds

I do believe there is integrity to every dignifiable act that would never expend its interest in returns. so I act accordingly. My readers, Officer Jones, the mean unintelligent idiot you mistakingly called stupid is for instance a person I would never want to spend a minute of my life with. This fool came up a hill where I was sitting, ran down a hill where I was sitting and didn’t have the privilege to touch me, all the while harassing and trying to seeming this intelligent woman who has already by his actions deemed him an inferior fool. His character is so devoid of life and dignity if I were his boss and I have a record of his actions, I will fire him without ever reconsidering. But then, evil people deserve the likes of him. He told me I was not wanted here, I don’t know what “here” meant truly but this statement makes him truly worse than any Caucasian cop I ever come across. He must have said this because I was, to this degenerate fool a hopeless unintelligent homeless woman. Then you must understand these evil people deserve the likes of them.

It became pretty apparent to me, that good people deserve the likes of me, and it becomes inevitable that if you have me around you’re probably luckier than you thought. I will never tell you not to come here and read anything you want or listen to whatever music you can find free, I will never do that I except when I’m angry and say if you don’t want to be here, you can be elsewhere I don’t care where they don’t care about life, love decency and humanity nor have dignifiable, worthwhile intelligence. You can be there. It is that simple. This is a space that I have so far for so many years made available free against all odds. And there are no ads screaming on you here. Your freedom is simple here. You can choose not to be here. And there are people who stalk me everyday for things I say here. This, I know you know it, only too spiritually, is not meanness but life and love. The opposite of Officer Jones.

Those who would rather have oppression, lack of utter intelligence and abuse deserve the likes of officer Jones. The company of evil deserve evil and ignorance and that they shall have it. They deserve the company they have. And yet they seek me out. My readers I need salvation from evil people who menace me. And my self-therapy has sustained me through all these events. What I need to overcome my phobia is simple. I pray for someone decent and capable, someone I can trust. In fact, there is no doubt in my mind overcoming this is a walk in the park. Pray for me if you want to, wherever you are in the world, whoever you are and whatever you believe in. Simple human decency is not a religion. There will always be evil in the world, you can choose to be active against it. That is your choice. Thank you for being here in the freedom and provision space for all who may. You are wanted here. And there is no doubt in my mind, you are more privileged for it than you know at the moment.

On why great things should be free

TechScape: Tech CEOs hedge their bets and dial up Trump | Technology | The Guardian

https://www.theguardian.com/technology/2024/oct/28/tech-ceos-trump-election

The CEOs of the biggest tech companies in the world are looking at the neck-and-neck polls, picking up their phones, and putting their ducks in a row for a potential Donald Trump presidency. The former US president has never shied away from threatening revenge against his perceived enemies, and tech’s leaders are heading off retributive regulatory scrutiny.

Lookie lookie there my readers. I know my support was against expending without any calculation for future side effects, against communism that endangers individual progress. Sometimes you have to do what’s best over what’s morally appealing. What doesn’t work won’t suddenly start working. It takes the willingness and ability against the odds. Anyways if anyone cares, I just want freedom, reasonable freedom of speech that allows me to take no unreasonable sides, the freedom of my conscience which already has a cost. And yes, an investigation that ends the economic ruin and harm developed against my innocent decent and dignified self. That I will appreciate. I don’t have the privilege to ask but I will forever appreciate. You will think justice was the arrest commodity in all existence. It certainly ain’t fair.

These are horrible times

My readers, it’s crazy how Fox News decided to place Kamala Harris where the black journalists were seated. Quick my readers, toss a coin, a quarter coin. I must ask it. Sixpence none the richer, who is the dumber? I did say burn that shit down. It’s more injurious than you think. Make truth your home. isn’t that safe

Meanwhile I am still asking Kamala Harris ‘ communist regime where my hard earned money is because when a thief wants to steal your money, they will try more than their best not to let you see it. If you see it, you must fight for it. A thief hides that which doesn’t belong to him. That’s what a thief does. Mustn’t you at all times fight for it, for truth and justice? If no one sees it, they’ll keep doing it. The question is who allows us to happen? Who is human and allows this to happen?

May the coming administration fight for justice on behave of ordinary and innocent people. That’s my prayer as we end the year. While this is happening , it is reported this administration is spending 150 billion dollars on illegal immigrants. It’s crazy how implausible, improbable, and impossible the $25,000 home advance is on a puff of filty unvectorizable “flying deck energy” with the bet above, isn’t it my smart readers? Unlike Kamala Harris, I have worked in fast food restaurants and no doubt it can be verified. Every employment or laborious act engaging other entities is an open book in this country because the IRS should have that info. Why don’t we have info from the IRS whether that’s true or not? If we don’t have that answer, is the IRS covering up for a lie? Unimaginable. That’s crazy. Meanwhile, if anyone thought $25,000 was waiting for them across an open border without ever working for it, all criminals or otherwise non criminals will kill to pay the drug cartels and human smugglers to get here.

These are horrible horrible lessons to teach anyone. These are horrible horrible times to be in as non-criminal law abiding persons are fighting for economic relief, shelter, civil freedom, freedom of speech and of humanity. These are horrible times.

May its ashes rest on me

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Of work, dignity, existence, self-reference and justice

However it may be overlooked, natural science is intensely functional, After all, we should be natural science. Unless we imagine it unintelligently a life of plastics and cling to plastics for life. It is indeed science, our science, unless we demean our lives with technology and technological advancements. A Caucasian woman came to me yesterday and asked for something and I showed her something else that was wrong, something else sickeningly impossible. it didn’t feel like rocket science at all. It wasn’t. Because she asked me. But when she came to me later and asked me as I would put it in my own way, “what is heat? what is electricity?, it became like rocket science as it truly needed to be explained dynamically in that instant, in my own way. Now, the instinct rather than the rational in me wanted to tell her to go ask the Hispanic woman with we wayward undisciplinable children going around disturbing my things while I minded my own business or the librarian that witnessed the bullshit. And life knows I don’t have many things but whatever I have is truly and distinctively mine. What she is indirectly asking me is stuff for NASA, for Yale for Oxford for Cambridge and auch. If otherwiseit can’t be found, then it must be read in a book. Because sometimes tragic things are funny untill you read a book.

Now books are not easy to make. not a single aspect of it,.or its production is easy. I do this and I’ve done this for years by myself. and I’m very much still imperfect. I am not a machine. Very much human. Whiçh reminds.me my bank sent me an email recently and so did Paypal. And I am reminded that the dignity of community is work, distinctive, dignifiable, verifiable work. Each according to his or her capacity. Is this rocket science? Everyone is indeed eventually liable to the IRS. No guilty person should ever ask for an audit. I need an audit for the edewlogics Paypal account for at least as long as I have been celibate. That’s about 10 years. And also for the personal PayPal account. If you are observing what’s happening cerebrally and not with some fake plastic mind, you’ll realize I am not fighting for money. I wouldn’t wish what happened to me to happen to my worst enemy.

That people would do harm to another for whatever reason and use the FBI as an excuse is sickening to me and it should be sickening to you or it will come to you, it will come to your door. As it becomes increasingly evident that Kamala Harris cannot be president, I hope Garland sees this as a chance for the redemption of dignity and justice, two things that can truly make America great again exemplified. If the excuse is the FBI then perhaps Garland should be the one to seek justice. I don’t know about you my readers, but I will never let anyone restore some indignity made relatable to me through undignifiable excuses. That is sacredly mine to resolve. Digital cover ups don’t work. I am more exposed to the rational and irrational functioning minds of people that I ever have.

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A case of T’s: Trauma, Comedy and Tragedy

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Politics and Vengeance

Since the inception of my journey of self-recovery from trauma I have a way of simply getting back to me for self-teference because it’s extremely important to do that. If I let the things around me get to me, then I have no way of protecting myself no way of protecting my mind and that is very important to me. My mind is my life. It’s my work. It’s what I love spending every waking hour with. Thus, the necessity for this history lane

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THE NONEXISTENTIAL DIVIDE

Take this fact from a woman who is hated just for being who she is, black, inferior, unattractive, unintelligent and all the rest…yeah those, people say all kinds of things to me in real life. I have been called, “loser,” scrub”, and whatever else. I have a tough skin because as an author, I understand the importance of freedom of expression. I get abused on YouTube for whatever reasons. If its not real life , its digital shit for degenerate unintelligent entitled racist reatrds who don’t know shit yet but think they know it all. Yet I have said it that the Jew and the Arab are reflection same-same-same-similar as the Caucasian I have said the Jew is red. Maybe that’s why WRAY where my money is.

Is that it, is that the human indignity evil people can use the FBI to commit civil rights evil and harm for? I say whatever blue the Jew has is red. No matter what side you say you’re on, RED AND BLUE in reflection is red relative to the differentiating x. This classism just doesn’t exist. Its bullshit. Excuses, excuses, excuses for some seemingly endless war. And you must know it, I already know. Either way truth be said. Now , that can never be antisemitism because it is science. My readers, we need science to embrace life and humanity. We need science to embrace truth over evil and harm. We need science to embrace going against the harm of the past while never giving in to unscientific reason for World Wars. I must say this succinctly. That war in the middle east is not existential. That divide is an artifact written by someone in a book written long ago. An artifact! It never was. After all, the Jews claim they used to live in the same area before war caused migration. The divide is an artifact.

Censoring people from doing science for sickeningly ridiculous reason like “science” over belief systems is unthinkable. No doubt. Now, my, I don’t know what else can be stolen from me since its unintelligent Kleptomania all the time. Maybe WRAY will tell what’s next to be stolen in his name. I am supposedly the lowest of the los as the unintelligent Buffon’s claim it and I still live on freedom. How important is that? People who say nothing enjoy the convenience and luxuries of comformity that doesn’t care or achieve nothing for humanity except hypnotize them with superficial and material things. I believe you call them celebrities. And there is no doubt in my mind this is cancer. And you feed into it, don’t you? There is limit to freedom and within this limit there must be a reasonable jutice-evoking freedom-of-speech. Maybe there is worse to be done to innocence, let’s ask WRAY and GARLAN D as he I believe must go out, soon. There is always time for dignified acts. Those who cant protect this simple allocation should perish. I assure you my readers, if things keep going this way, peril is indeed what it is. Remember, there is evil in this world, you can choose to be active against it in your own little way.

Who does that?

Sometimes in life what really needs to happen is unseasoned, unreasoned. It may, for instance, be appropriate to ask what subject follows upon an objective act. I can never imagine being a part of a group rationalizing harm being done to someone they don’t know or have never reasonably encountered for whatever poisonous or toxic motivation. it would degrade me spiritually, that is, if I am corrupted by evil, I shall no longer have the confidence and dignity to speak of or upon such. I will lose clarity and sanctity of mind and purpose. I will be doing self harm to none other than myself. Whoever will invest that harmful effort on someone they don’t know, someone they have never met, someone who has never done them harm. Who does that? That uncaused pain, if from being will forever be a growing pain. That’s why my readers, I keep away from being an unreasoned or unknowing committee of harm. Whatever could cause me to do something like that when my conscience is clear and hands are clean?

Unimaginable

My readers, Biden says or read from the teleprompter (I don’t know which. Ask Kamala…wait…think …you can’t ask Kamala or you’ll get a dual recursive question because Kamala may be using the same teleprompter…my readers, we gotta get smarter than a teleprompter …yes, this must ramble on for as long as I can hold on to sanity for this show…is this tellable…NASA… you wanna tell us…you know I gotta get NASA involved in the ramble-fication…and my readers, while we’re in this daze, do support this voice for the sake of life, love, humanity, nature, science, support the free books for life cause and tell your friends about it)… meanwhile…if you survived that ramble, Biden says getting hostages back should be priority in the war in the middle east. And it could have been the thought that “doing anything you can because you can” was the priority. Except for religion, belief systems and fake inadequate science, I can’t imagine how same-same, same-very similar people can hate themselves so much, endangering world peace in the process. unimaginable. And no way. There ain’t gonna be no shit science here.

Sickeningly disgusting

I’m supposed to wear something that has nothing to do with me so someone can steal my life but wait, not the horrible-horrific parts of it. What do I get out of it? Absolutely nothing. Does this take the understanding of rocket science? It clearly for dumb people who will never get smart.

On dream adventures in pipelalaland

My readers, I watched two gay Hispanic males making music videos in the toilet after the giant great sculpture of a non existent fake ass baby brought down the skies, and the Caucasian tried to steal what belongs to this black woman in great suffering differenting x again despite all the luxurious flashy things he got because he just can’t help himself. Anytime he comes around me, Kleptomania, Kleptomania, Kleptomania. And I don’t steal. This must be why DEI is failing, however morally inclined. It is a Kleptomania pride-filled science inspired by toxic pride and emulated for the same effects as symbolic and precedent. These unscientific ideations are being forced down my throat against my engaging and involving will rather than intuitively shared because pride has no intuition other than flashy pride. I wish I was kidding. I will never mind sharing and people. Ever. But it makes me crave the company of smart simple people for my future as well. My readers, can you point me in the direction for where the aliens live? I want me one of them. Smart, kind and simple people are people too(Are they not? Is this a rhetorical hallucination question within an AI generated field matrix?). Especially with a mate, that must make life so worth living, worth sharing as it won’t feel one sided. It’s a stupidity-crazed pipeline around here. And I am still being abused around here. How is that freaking possible? I must be dreaming it.

Of life and unpredictable turns

They say the police stops them from helping flood survivors. That is crazy won’t you say my readers, if it’s truly happening. In fact, it’s a sickening thought. There’s lot of help for unknown strangers. If you can’t help those you know who are also suffering when you can, where is the evidence of your character. Who can testify to that? Things I used to say must be coming around in different forms. I did say if you refuse to help innocence against victimization when you can, the evil will get to you. I also say this too often my readers with every essence if good in me: there is evil in this world, you can choose to be active against it. Thank you for being here.

On rationality and love where unexpected

British forces involved in defending Israel from Iranian attack, says Healey | Israel | The Guardian

https://www.theguardian.com/world/2024/oct/02/british-forces-involved-defending-israel-iran-attack-healey

“Make no mistake, Britain stands full square against such violence. We support Israel’s reasonable demand for the security of its people.”

Doing mathematics anytime yet, Britain? What the frack a frack is red assed Britain doing in full square? What the frack?

Every one rational demands, works tirelessly for their people. I know I care for the future generations of my kind because I have suffered just for being who I am and fir daring freedom with purpose. Everyone wants exactly that for their people if there is an ounce of love in the world. Such one sided takes on what’s going on will destroy us.

And the incidences with Muslims in the England should not be brought into this conversation for the sake of rationality my readers. The middle east is not a one sided sore. It is a full blown blood brain barrier decimating cardiovascular risk to the world. And shit there is a religious propensity to be irrational and fanatic rather than ethical and intellectual heartbeat ticking.

How would you like it by international humane laws that you have a prisoner in your custody and without any ounce or sense of justice, an outsider comes and kills the prisoner killing or injuring your citizens. How much do you like that?

Britain, nothing but love for you but this is not a local war. This demands rationality and limits, not taking sides and squaring planes.

England, this inferior, unattractive, unintelligent, bottom of the pile little homeless woman called this shit out a while ago. Here:

On Savagery, dignity, and international laws

Where were you then? Were you partying it up like you just don’t care with the never ending fraudulent chaotic prostituting Pi?

My readers, openly open and caring as I can never afford to be them Kamala Hollywood goonies you adore si much The situation in the middle east cannot be solved by God. I should know because I have been praying for a mate and I can’t find a single good man. That’s because none exists. Anyways, forget that.

We need rationality and love where it is least expected.

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On limits and lack thereof

As it seems there is a renewed plethora of violence in the middle east, I wonder my readers, who is actually making implicit strategic decisions to avoid chaos as I did with the idiot cop I encountered not long ago? I would have wasted my time and energy as delicately as life is pursuing vengeance. How is that shit working for Democrats? I must not wonder nonetheless that it isn’t hard work and personal ability that gets you where you should be but rather privilege. Who is making the tactical and strategic decisions of just don’t do it but these other people can do whatever they want? How the shit did this shit happen. How long is this shit going to be before world war III. If this plethora of shit doesn’t get to you, you’re like the idiot celebrities you worship for vanity reason, and you’re probably are on the wrong site. Anyways my readers, I did speak of limits, a mathematical conception, and how a lack of it doesn’t necessarily lead towards infinity. You know have clues on where else it may lead. Please support a worthwhile means of information by supporting the free books for life cause. So worth it. In a world where people are saying the FBI is telling them to do the evil they do, while people who don’t work get paid, I bet world war III is easily envisioned without a brain. Anyways my readers, thank you for being here.

The Art of money and bullshit-walking

I’m naturally situated to explore point differentials in alw–an important aspect of the differentiating x perspective. I’m grateful I never overwhelm my thoughts in works in progress and book planning with all the shenanigans shit that goes on in the wild out here. An Indian woman was stalking me yesterday my readers pretending she’s not the foreigner and fraud in my genepool, looking like a pig creeping to steal a blanket, like Kamala sent a stalker. I don’t know how a pig will get the mirrors and the space. Uh oh, maybe you can pretend you’re a friend, a fake genetic relativistic parasitic implant, or invent a fake grandmother or father. Crazy, I’m not Oprah,bmaltreating people like Monique while sitting around advertising Kamala and her Hollywood goonies pretending they truly believe the shit they speak. Everything is so “joyful”. No doubt. Oprah is very much smarter than me in this scenario where I am telling you to make America smart again. Truly sarcasm. Clearly because she’s got all that money. Because money and bullshit works together. And because this has little to do with money or the shit they do in brainless politics but rather with authenticity, human dignity, self-reckoning and the human will. Black women, I must speak my peace; do not make fraud your legacy. Don’t do it. If you think you hate Trump that much, stay home. That is very much a choice.